4 years ago today I gave birth to the most beautiful baby. I really don’t remember much about her birth, other then it was unmedicated and the doctor missed the delivery, I don’t remember it being very traumatic. What stands out in my mind with Aubrey is the miracle that occurred when she was still inside.
We went to the doctor for our first appointment, and all was well, he scheduled an ultrasound and when we went to the ultrasound there was no baby. He diagnosed her as a blyted ovum there was no heart beat, just an empty sack. We were very sad, and prepared for the loss. The doctor made the choice to let me miscarry on my own, and told me to go home and it would happen within the week and he’ll keep close contact with me.
Needless to say we were both very sad, we were so excited when we found out that we were pregnant. I stayed close to home, but after one full week with nothing, and still feeling “pregnant” I decided to throw caution to the wind, and went with the family sledding.
I had Danny give me a blessing and he said that all would be fine. I was so angry when he finished, how could you tell me it was all going to be fine, when we both saw that ultrasound. The doctor had made it pretty clear that this baby was not to be.
I had an appointment the next monday to meet with the doctor, and he was surprised that I hadn’t miscarried, he sent me over for some lab work, and it showed I was still pregnant. I then spent the next week going in for lab test on a daily basis, and he was very kind to call daily to give me the results himself. He finally scheduled me for another ultrasound, and the look on his face when he saw that there was a fully formed appropriate sized, heart beating baby. I thought he was going to cry. He just kept shaking his head, and mumbling how he couldn’t understand how this could be. He apologized, but said that my blood levels were still messed up so we went on progesterone shots for the next 10 weeks of pregnancy. I worried for the rest of the pregnancy that there was something wrong and that we were just preventing what should have happened and that maybe we were making a mistake by preventing a miscarriage. It was an emotional time for me, but when we finally had our baby, I knew immediatly that everything was fine. I of course had to apologize to Danny for being so angry with him after the blessing. I was humbled, and was reminded that I’m not really in control in this life, and that I need to excercise my faith a little more.
Aubrey is a total delight. She has sparkled from day one and I fell completly in love with her from the moment she was born. She has always had the ability to make people smile, and laugh. She is the first to share, the first to cuddle, the first to cry for someone who’s sad. She is just what our family needed and we love her so much.
Today we had a little lunch for Aubrey with some of her friends, nothing big and elaborate, just a lunch. We are going to go to Lake Tahoe to celebrate her wonderful life. We love you Aubrey.
Month: September 2008
Wow, It's been a while
I think this is the longest I have gone without adding an entry to my blog. Has anyone missed me? We’ve been busy with school beginning, and all that comes with getting back into a routine after a summer of play. I have a lot of pictures of things we’ve been doing that I’d like to add I’m not sure how to catch up but I’ll give it a shot.
On Labor Day went hiking with some friends. We hang out with the Hamblin’s a lot and enjoy their company. They have a daughter who is in her early teens that Emma just loves, and she is very sweet with Emma. It’s nice to have a good role models for Emma.
The hike was on the west side of Lake Tahoe, to some water falls up there, but they weren’t really flowing this time of year. The trail was hard to stay on because of the giant granite rocks. The kids had a blast climbing and scaling all of the rocks, we kind of lost our focus of finding the falls but accidentally found them when we were just about to give up. The hike was short, maybe 3 miles total, but it was perfect for the little kids. Aubrey was able to hike the entire way on her own and even Alyssa got down and did some of it. Afterward we found a great Chinese Buffet at Tahoe and we enjoyed a nice lunch.
Skipping now to the present, Danny’s sister Bonny is here for a visit. The kids are loving the attention that can only come from an Aunt. We don’t have relatives near by so when someone comes to visit it’s a special treat. What can you do as a Mom, if you say no to that milk shake you look like a real party pooper, so I try and just let them enjoy the attention knowing that it will be a while until they get another visitor.
I wanted to get some pictures before Bonny heads back to Alaska, so I took everyone to Dayton State Park and played photographer. The light was fading quickly but everyone was fairly cooperative, Aubrey kept thinking it was funny to stick her tongue out in every picture, 3 year old humor I guess, but I finally bribed her with a sucker so she would cooperate, and the rest of it went well.
I think my kids look more like they could be Aunt Bonny’s kids rather than my own. I see where they get their blonde hair from. We’ve had a great visit with Bonny!