OK, I think I can do it this time…

A few of you saw an announcement that I made last week on my blog. I quickly deleted it, putting it in writing made it a little too real, and completely sent me into a panic. I’m really struggling with this, and I’m not sure how to deal with the feelings I’m having. Of course a new baby is such a blessing, and we will love this new addition with all of our hearts, it’s just going to take a while to adjust to this. The kids seem very excited about it, Tanner would really like a brother, of course there are no guarantees there. I pray that I will find a way to balance all of the needs of these young spirits, and know how to guide them, teach them, and help them find their place in this sometimes scary world. Excuse my drama, we’re all entitled to a little now and then right?
Anyway, we are excited, scared, worried, I’m sure there isn’t an emotion that we haven’t experienced over the last few weeks, but in the end we will have another beautiful member of our family, and I’m sure that I will look back on this and wonder what I was ever worried about, and wont be able to imagine life without this new little one…
I’ll keep you posted on due date, I haven’t called the doctor yet, I’m not anxious to start all the appointments, blood draws, weigh ins, etc… I have an appointment on the 27th of Oct. to see how the birth control is working for me, so maybe I’ll keep that appointment and let him know how it’s working then.